25th September 2006,
5.00pm Monday. As usual finishing blog before go back- lock the door in case any disturbance from outside. Fri CG was good, worship lead a bit stuck, coz most of the people not sure about the songs that I lead..sharing was good- an overview of the weeks' material on "My Father, my God"- 1st- My God as myFather, 2nd- My Father who is good, 3rd- The Father who forgives, 4th- The Father has choosen me, 5th- The Father, the Gardener, 6th- The Father who discipline, 7th- The Father who hugs. A week of prayer and fasting, and study on the topics of 'The Father'. Very relevant, and this week will be "Fathering Pastor Conference". There are more than a hundreds of Pastors from all over the corners in Malaysia will be coming- mainly from the interior places- most ministered to the Orang Asli. This is our 2nd time organising the conference- with the hope to bless the pastors, those that has sacrifice their lives for God's people. God has provide more than enough for the conference- we will be subsidising the accomodation, transport and everything- to bless the pastors.
Saturday has been a full day for me. 1st Oct will be e-THIS Live, and we are trying our best to solve whatever teething problems- bugs to prepare for system implementation. 23rd Sept is also my daddy's 3 years in heaven. I miss him so so much. Went for dinner with Benji and Roland at e-Gate (Subway). After all done, Benji fetch me back home, and in the car we discuss few things- and one of it touched about forgiveness. He mentioned that "To forgive" is "To forget". To wipe up all, and renewing one relationship as how God has forgiven us. I agree with him in certain way, but not about forgetting. When somethings happen- in your heart you may forgive a person, but it doesn't really mean that you forget all. Things had happened, and nothing can change that. Unless I'm a computer that every single memories wipe out from my hardisk, or else it's still there. I argue on that- but he is not very happy. My meaning of forgiveness- is to really forgive from my heart- yet things are different in a way that I might not able to treat the other person as it is. Sometimes, as the season goes- things happen, things change, and I am accepting the changes. Yet, forgiveness is not of dwelling on one's weaknesses and stop you from going forward.
After the discussion in the car, my heart was so painful and aching. I went to the swimming pool and cried for 2 hours. Am I that sensitive? Why I cried? It's not of what Benji said or whether he offended me, no it's not. I just so sad- seeing my own spiritual life, how I've been struggling and about to climb up- and yet, it's just so difficult. I just couldn't accept that my heart don't forgive others...and I'm back to square one. Have I forgiven others? Checking my heart- again and again, deep search deep. I confess it all, if there's any person that I still hold the biterness, I release to God.
I receive a few smses:
" Love isn't about compelled to do anything! It's about whether you allow Him to flood you with healing rivers of Love,or closing up and not allow Him to work".
"Forgiving is NOT forgetting! It is giving your suffering to Him. When you have truly given ALL of it to Him, you will experience release from pain. The "not forgetting" part means learn from the mistake and don't fall for it again. Otherwise, you will be burned again. God wants us to learn from our experiences."
Father, I look you You, search my heart O Lord, and see if there is any offensive ways in me, Lead me to Your everlasting. Let the meditation of my heart and word of my mouth be ever pleasing to You, my Lord. I forgive all, and help me to treat others with the same love as before, and not of seeing others 'different'. Help me to be slow in speech and active in listening. Let my words ever pleasing You- let it be edifying, and tearing ones' down. Forgive me of my carelessness of speech, if anytime I've hurt the others, forgive me- and please Lord, bring healing to the others.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
To Start Somewhere...
21st September 2006,
5.27pm Thursday evening. Today is happening day. I went to Pantai Mutiara Hospital early morning with 2 of my collegues- Choong and Magdalene. Have a short overview of e-THIS system and the workflow. Work as usual, training, department meeting, and normal routine. I appreciate all that the staff has done, even though sometimes we got a bit quarrels, but learning to see beyond the weakness and accepting the non-lovable things. Learning to look beyond the black dot, and appreciate the white surface. Easily said than done. It's always relationship that is so difficult to deal with, relationship that builds and destroys. What I can learn here? Still..no man an island, and we need one another. I need to relate, and I love to relate to others. I am learning- even getting to know new members in Abundance CG, a different set of environment compared to my previous CG, learning to relate and learn from the wise. Abundance CG composition is well balanced: with married couples with kids, older people - Pastor Mei and Pastor Eddie, Susie (Ps. Sam's wife), young couples, and few of singles and young adult. It's different from my old CG with all young adults, and some couples and married young couples.
I got a mail from Pragas yesterday. I just got to know that he gonna resign and give up his job to go full time missionary course for half a year, then proceed to his calling into mission field to Sri Lanka for another 2 years. He's giving up his work, his home and everything- and persuing the higher calling God has for him. It's not easy, require great faith and such passion for God. It's still go down to the relationship with God- the friendship with God, the love for Him to move out and touch others. Yes, I am encouraged. I'm always encouraged to see people of God doing great exploit for Him. I was once on fire, and will do anything at all for Him, but now I've diluting down, stilling down...The cares of the world has draw me a distance from God. I've hurt Him again and again. I have to get serious and mean what I want to do for Him...
Another person that I want to give thanks for is Benji. A man after God's own heart. I told myself I'll never never put any expectation on him. I've seen so many friendship injured because of expectations on one another-broken trust, disappointment, different phase of life, people come people go. I pray that I will always cheerish friends that God has put along my path. I'm thankful, for people He brought to encourage me in my time of sadness - always pointing me to Christ, keeping me from falling away. Benji has always been a good friend. His honesty and love for God, his powerful testimony, his sharp word of knowledge, indeed a blessing to those who knows him. I hope the best for him...in whatever he does, the Lord will blessed and reward him plentiful.
Friends are friends, God is God. Where is the focus? I learned that in all things, God will always be the focus, no one else, but Christ alone. He is the Centre of the Mark...in everything we do. With this wonderful people come along my path, where is my stand? I must start somewhere...It's long, the mediocre has been long,...what You want me to do at this point, O Lord? How Lord? Where to start Lord? I want to love You more. Yes- start small, in knowing Him in Prayer, communion, His Words, devotion- lifestyle of worship- then in Cell, Family, Church...Can I do it Lord? I've been discouraged and disappointed so many times, can I do it? "Yes, Focus on Me"....Thank You Lord, for giving me the 2nd chance, one after another. Thank You for Your Grace that's so free...I will try my best Lord, please be patient with me. I love You, Daddy!
5.27pm Thursday evening. Today is happening day. I went to Pantai Mutiara Hospital early morning with 2 of my collegues- Choong and Magdalene. Have a short overview of e-THIS system and the workflow. Work as usual, training, department meeting, and normal routine. I appreciate all that the staff has done, even though sometimes we got a bit quarrels, but learning to see beyond the weakness and accepting the non-lovable things. Learning to look beyond the black dot, and appreciate the white surface. Easily said than done. It's always relationship that is so difficult to deal with, relationship that builds and destroys. What I can learn here? Still..no man an island, and we need one another. I need to relate, and I love to relate to others. I am learning- even getting to know new members in Abundance CG, a different set of environment compared to my previous CG, learning to relate and learn from the wise. Abundance CG composition is well balanced: with married couples with kids, older people - Pastor Mei and Pastor Eddie, Susie (Ps. Sam's wife), young couples, and few of singles and young adult. It's different from my old CG with all young adults, and some couples and married young couples.
I got a mail from Pragas yesterday. I just got to know that he gonna resign and give up his job to go full time missionary course for half a year, then proceed to his calling into mission field to Sri Lanka for another 2 years. He's giving up his work, his home and everything- and persuing the higher calling God has for him. It's not easy, require great faith and such passion for God. It's still go down to the relationship with God- the friendship with God, the love for Him to move out and touch others. Yes, I am encouraged. I'm always encouraged to see people of God doing great exploit for Him. I was once on fire, and will do anything at all for Him, but now I've diluting down, stilling down...The cares of the world has draw me a distance from God. I've hurt Him again and again. I have to get serious and mean what I want to do for Him...
Another person that I want to give thanks for is Benji. A man after God's own heart. I told myself I'll never never put any expectation on him. I've seen so many friendship injured because of expectations on one another-broken trust, disappointment, different phase of life, people come people go. I pray that I will always cheerish friends that God has put along my path. I'm thankful, for people He brought to encourage me in my time of sadness - always pointing me to Christ, keeping me from falling away. Benji has always been a good friend. His honesty and love for God, his powerful testimony, his sharp word of knowledge, indeed a blessing to those who knows him. I hope the best for him...in whatever he does, the Lord will blessed and reward him plentiful.
Friends are friends, God is God. Where is the focus? I learned that in all things, God will always be the focus, no one else, but Christ alone. He is the Centre of the Mark...in everything we do. With this wonderful people come along my path, where is my stand? I must start somewhere...It's long, the mediocre has been long,...what You want me to do at this point, O Lord? How Lord? Where to start Lord? I want to love You more. Yes- start small, in knowing Him in Prayer, communion, His Words, devotion- lifestyle of worship- then in Cell, Family, Church...Can I do it Lord? I've been discouraged and disappointed so many times, can I do it? "Yes, Focus on Me"....Thank You Lord, for giving me the 2nd chance, one after another. Thank You for Your Grace that's so free...I will try my best Lord, please be patient with me. I love You, Daddy!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
I'm worship leading this Fri...
19th September 2006,
It's 6.20pm, hmm...yes, it's late and I'm still in the office, what are you doing here, Shirley- you may asked. Hehee...I just finished typing 4 songs to use for worship leading this coming Friday. It has been long since the last time I worship-lead in Cell. Esther asked me to help out in worship for the upcoming Fri-CG. Can't believe I can be given another chance to serve. I'm just so happy,.. after such long time. I'm still not sure which Cell to settle down with, but higher percentage will be Abundance CG. Most of the members are married, young couples, and just a handful of singles. Yet, I feel comfortable, a balance- I can learn a lot from the 'older' people :PP
Today is routine, e-THIS gonna get LIVE this 1st October, and yet the system still have a lot of bugs- a lot more to change, and the staff has been practising and familiarising with the features. Gonna visit Pantai Mutiara this Thurs, and meeting with HOD tomorrow to discuss on Medical Supplies charging- hopefully all able to work well. Need to structurized my thoughts, and the messange that I want to put across during the meeting, or else I will be bombarded with a lot of complaints and ridicules. I'm anticipating more to come, new system, new reno, newness in my own life, newness- a fresh start to know Him more....
It's 6.20pm, hmm...yes, it's late and I'm still in the office, what are you doing here, Shirley- you may asked. Hehee...I just finished typing 4 songs to use for worship leading this coming Friday. It has been long since the last time I worship-lead in Cell. Esther asked me to help out in worship for the upcoming Fri-CG. Can't believe I can be given another chance to serve. I'm just so happy,.. after such long time. I'm still not sure which Cell to settle down with, but higher percentage will be Abundance CG. Most of the members are married, young couples, and just a handful of singles. Yet, I feel comfortable, a balance- I can learn a lot from the 'older' people :PP
Today is routine, e-THIS gonna get LIVE this 1st October, and yet the system still have a lot of bugs- a lot more to change, and the staff has been practising and familiarising with the features. Gonna visit Pantai Mutiara this Thurs, and meeting with HOD tomorrow to discuss on Medical Supplies charging- hopefully all able to work well. Need to structurized my thoughts, and the messange that I want to put across during the meeting, or else I will be bombarded with a lot of complaints and ridicules. I'm anticipating more to come, new system, new reno, newness in my own life, newness- a fresh start to know Him more....
Monday, September 18, 2006
Jesus: To be rested in Him alone
18th September 2006,
4.32pm Monday. It's time to go home. Rain heavily today, got wet running to coffee shop for breakfast this morning. The weekends was good. Fri, went for CG, supper with Benji, Winnie and Andrew, then Saturday work the whole day for eTHIS training. Sunday is the Play "My Father, My Hero" organised by the CATs (Creative Arts Trooper Group). Manage to invite a non-Christian friend to the Play and the message is good- about God as our heavenly Daddy that loves us unconditionally, agape Love.
The title for my blog today is about 'resting'. I have a verse craved on a glass, a sovenior given by friend- written on this verse: "In quietness and in Confidence shall be your strength" (Isaiah 30:15). I need to come rested quietly in His Presence and assurance of His love. Life pace has been very fast- I couldn't catch up and many times just tag along, and flow with the crowd. Like a little child that just venture into the unknown, trying to get into the culture and trying to adapt with the environment- searching for more, and compromising here and there, getting acceptance from others, running around without direction, not sure where I am heading- getting LOST! Yet, His hands never let me go, allowing me to go through the wandering land, learning to walk, run and fly- then fall flat and soar up again. He is my all in all, my security, my provision. There is none like Him, no one else can touch my heart like He do. He satisfies, He satisfies, He satisfies my desire. I just need to hold on to that truth and not to be drown in pity party sorrows. Laerning to love myself and pampered myself- also discipline in my walk with Him. Not entertaining the lies of the enemies, but to only believe what the Bible said about me, what God sees in me. Yes, I'm holding on- and here am I, Lord, take me.
Forgive me Daddy, for doubting You and angry...such childish attitude, I wanna change. I come afresh I pray Lord help me to start afresh, only to please You, only to love You, to hear Your voice, to fall in Love again- bring me deeper, deeper in love with You...Jesus hold me close in Your embrace....no more pity party, no more sorrows- but victory, joy and love.
4.32pm Monday. It's time to go home. Rain heavily today, got wet running to coffee shop for breakfast this morning. The weekends was good. Fri, went for CG, supper with Benji, Winnie and Andrew, then Saturday work the whole day for eTHIS training. Sunday is the Play "My Father, My Hero" organised by the CATs (Creative Arts Trooper Group). Manage to invite a non-Christian friend to the Play and the message is good- about God as our heavenly Daddy that loves us unconditionally, agape Love.
The title for my blog today is about 'resting'. I have a verse craved on a glass, a sovenior given by friend- written on this verse: "In quietness and in Confidence shall be your strength" (Isaiah 30:15). I need to come rested quietly in His Presence and assurance of His love. Life pace has been very fast- I couldn't catch up and many times just tag along, and flow with the crowd. Like a little child that just venture into the unknown, trying to get into the culture and trying to adapt with the environment- searching for more, and compromising here and there, getting acceptance from others, running around without direction, not sure where I am heading- getting LOST! Yet, His hands never let me go, allowing me to go through the wandering land, learning to walk, run and fly- then fall flat and soar up again. He is my all in all, my security, my provision. There is none like Him, no one else can touch my heart like He do. He satisfies, He satisfies, He satisfies my desire. I just need to hold on to that truth and not to be drown in pity party sorrows. Laerning to love myself and pampered myself- also discipline in my walk with Him. Not entertaining the lies of the enemies, but to only believe what the Bible said about me, what God sees in me. Yes, I'm holding on- and here am I, Lord, take me.
Forgive me Daddy, for doubting You and angry...such childish attitude, I wanna change. I come afresh I pray Lord help me to start afresh, only to please You, only to love You, to hear Your voice, to fall in Love again- bring me deeper, deeper in love with You...Jesus hold me close in Your embrace....no more pity party, no more sorrows- but victory, joy and love.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Yo-Yo Expression
14th September 2006,
5.50pm now. It's Thursday. The week gonna end soon. Time just flies, so fast. And I'm lingering around. Now is 2006, and I'm still lingering around. Today I'm very emotional, I don't know why. Is it to do with PMS again? But my menses not come yet, already over. This week rather still, very routine very slow very draggy. Work has been real routine, I don't have much friends in work to talk to and confide. It's not that I need people to confide, just that most of the staff are very seniours and difficult to make conversations. My work here has been really stagnant now, yes- even though management, but then I feel I'm not a good leader, I just don't know how to motivate staff. When got problem I'm not strong enough to back them up. I'm just too young and 'unexperience' to move up, or maybe I'm still the little 'timid' Shirley. It has been 3 years in management, yet I feel as if I don't really achieve anything. Feel so bored with the routine work, don't know whether it's time for me to have some change. Work is rather boring and nothing much to look forward to. Yet, I press on, believe God is trying to knock at my character, intergrity, I really don't know. I don't like to be in Managerial Position, it's probably I'm people-concious, or people-pleaser. Man-pleaser. Always mindful of what others said and what others see about me. I know I have to really change that. Or else my life will be drive only to please people.
I really don't know how to express much. My words are few, my vocabs are few. My English not that good, even though I'm Eng-ed. I don't know how to sweet talk people. I am just that, and I don't like the way I behave, don't know how to talk, don't know how to learn- no motivation at all. What a Christian?! What an example? PR no good. I always like to think bad about myself, always not satisfied. Today was so sad- and feel so lonely. Sometimes there's no reason for that. Then I linger on, probably I entertain the thought, the lies of the enemy- saying Shirley, you're bad, you're bad, very pitiful, nobody's child, no one loves you..you're nothing. Even I know what the Bible said, I'm God's child- yet, sometimes, or many times I feel so defeated and lost. As if not rooted firmly in the Words.
I can be high and mighty at one time, and after few days, drop down flat, defeated. There is no consistency. I really need God's strength to overcome my weakness. "Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your Strength is made perfect in my weakness". How to be consistent? This week ACTS talking about Prayer. Prevailing in Prayer...Am I prayerful enough? How do I approach prayer? Oh Lord, I need to buckle up myself, and I can't do it with my own strength. At time, I feel You're so far. At times, I feel I can't reach You...and I feel as if I'm drowning apart, and it's so long to reach You. Daddy, rekindle that fire Lord. I want to please you and You alone. Not man, not others. I want the first love, the passion, the love, the purpose of life. And most of all I need You. Strengthen my inner stances Lord, strengthen me I pray, tht I will not swayed to the left or right, but to remain steadfast, holding on to Your commandment.
5.50pm now. It's Thursday. The week gonna end soon. Time just flies, so fast. And I'm lingering around. Now is 2006, and I'm still lingering around. Today I'm very emotional, I don't know why. Is it to do with PMS again? But my menses not come yet, already over. This week rather still, very routine very slow very draggy. Work has been real routine, I don't have much friends in work to talk to and confide. It's not that I need people to confide, just that most of the staff are very seniours and difficult to make conversations. My work here has been really stagnant now, yes- even though management, but then I feel I'm not a good leader, I just don't know how to motivate staff. When got problem I'm not strong enough to back them up. I'm just too young and 'unexperience' to move up, or maybe I'm still the little 'timid' Shirley. It has been 3 years in management, yet I feel as if I don't really achieve anything. Feel so bored with the routine work, don't know whether it's time for me to have some change. Work is rather boring and nothing much to look forward to. Yet, I press on, believe God is trying to knock at my character, intergrity, I really don't know. I don't like to be in Managerial Position, it's probably I'm people-concious, or people-pleaser. Man-pleaser. Always mindful of what others said and what others see about me. I know I have to really change that. Or else my life will be drive only to please people.
I really don't know how to express much. My words are few, my vocabs are few. My English not that good, even though I'm Eng-ed. I don't know how to sweet talk people. I am just that, and I don't like the way I behave, don't know how to talk, don't know how to learn- no motivation at all. What a Christian?! What an example? PR no good. I always like to think bad about myself, always not satisfied. Today was so sad- and feel so lonely. Sometimes there's no reason for that. Then I linger on, probably I entertain the thought, the lies of the enemy- saying Shirley, you're bad, you're bad, very pitiful, nobody's child, no one loves you..you're nothing. Even I know what the Bible said, I'm God's child- yet, sometimes, or many times I feel so defeated and lost. As if not rooted firmly in the Words.
I can be high and mighty at one time, and after few days, drop down flat, defeated. There is no consistency. I really need God's strength to overcome my weakness. "Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your Strength is made perfect in my weakness". How to be consistent? This week ACTS talking about Prayer. Prevailing in Prayer...Am I prayerful enough? How do I approach prayer? Oh Lord, I need to buckle up myself, and I can't do it with my own strength. At time, I feel You're so far. At times, I feel I can't reach You...and I feel as if I'm drowning apart, and it's so long to reach You. Daddy, rekindle that fire Lord. I want to please you and You alone. Not man, not others. I want the first love, the passion, the love, the purpose of life. And most of all I need You. Strengthen my inner stances Lord, strengthen me I pray, tht I will not swayed to the left or right, but to remain steadfast, holding on to Your commandment.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
MPS Scientific Conference, Crown Princess Hotel, KL 8-10th Sept 2006
10th Sept 2006,
2.47pm Sunday. Yup, just finish lunch and now waiting for time to pass on to travel to airport. Going back Penang in 3 hours time. My flight is 6pm. Time flies, so fast it has come to the end of my trip. KL trip has been quite pleasant, pretty enjoyable, even though quite tired runnign around town.
I reached KL on Thurs about 9.30pm, and took KLIA Express to KL Sentral; frm there took another Putra LRT to Ampang Park, then walk to Hotel for check-in. By that time already 11pm plus. Wow, can't believe I can be so independant in travelling now. Probably I've learned from Singapore trip experience, know how to explore and venture different places, different route. It's good to travel and be away from work, and rest, not forgetting meeting lost lost friends . Overall, I'm blessed in this trip.
Angie stayed with me in the hotel on Thurs nite, and we went for supper (Dinner for Angie) in Mc-D till 3am. It's great, to share on the updates - things in church, the happening in Cell, frens that we known -who got married and whoever has been attached. Tiring but a fulfilling day. The next day Fri I had breakfast in the hotel, and after that start my travelling to Dang Wangi, then interchange to Raja Chulan station. Meeting up with Herbert for lunch and as usual, he shared so much on his encounter in his relationship. I was pretty shock to hear that he gonna get married Jan next year. He said he just started relationship a week ago. Wow, that is unbelievable. Indeed God is working in his relationship encounter. Hmm..another new couple. This week itself I've known of 2 new couples: Herbert and Roland.
After that I went shopping alone in BB Plaza, quite a varieties of clothing and cute stuff but didn't buy anything. No sales, got to wait for next year. After shopping around, supposed to meet up with Jenny but she couldn't make it last minutes, so I manage to grab Kawai to accompany me for dinner - that's my night.
Sat is a full day, probably not, only half day conference. Skip the last concurrent session to go KLCC for movie. Meet up Jaime and my old old long lost coursemate- Foo Chee Keong, hearing the updates, life has been going well with others, promotion, family, kids. Cool! I watched "CLICK" with Kawai, enter late- the movie quite alright, good story line about family. Rating, ok only.
Yeah, I'm now in Lighthouse Fellowship, Kawai's room. He is sleeping soundly, yes, must be very tired accompanying me go shopping and movie. Don't wanna wake him up, let him sleep. Today's service is long, 3 hours plus- more on ministering. Ps Joseph ministered to the people, God is ministering His presence in the church. I was so touched and enlighten to see God moved mightily in the place- people touched, cried and transform in the heart. The worship was great, I enjoy it so much. Maybe it's also because I'm familiar with the worship songs, only a few that I never heard before but can catch up after a few times singing. Pastor shared on book of Joshua 23, about finding the rest in His presence. About holding fast to His comendment so that we don't swayed from left to right, but to stand steadfast. Very timely message. I seen the church has grown, people coming out giving testimony and giving glory to God for what He has done. Overall it's a blessing.
Wow, I'm tired, got to end this blog and it's time to go to airport. Tomorrow will be another week of challenges. Praise God for the wonderful week....Penang here I come :P He's sleeping like a baby, let him...Oh boy, I'm so tired!
2.47pm Sunday. Yup, just finish lunch and now waiting for time to pass on to travel to airport. Going back Penang in 3 hours time. My flight is 6pm. Time flies, so fast it has come to the end of my trip. KL trip has been quite pleasant, pretty enjoyable, even though quite tired runnign around town.
I reached KL on Thurs about 9.30pm, and took KLIA Express to KL Sentral; frm there took another Putra LRT to Ampang Park, then walk to Hotel for check-in. By that time already 11pm plus. Wow, can't believe I can be so independant in travelling now. Probably I've learned from Singapore trip experience, know how to explore and venture different places, different route. It's good to travel and be away from work, and rest, not forgetting meeting lost lost friends . Overall, I'm blessed in this trip.
Angie stayed with me in the hotel on Thurs nite, and we went for supper (Dinner for Angie) in Mc-D till 3am. It's great, to share on the updates - things in church, the happening in Cell, frens that we known -who got married and whoever has been attached. Tiring but a fulfilling day. The next day Fri I had breakfast in the hotel, and after that start my travelling to Dang Wangi, then interchange to Raja Chulan station. Meeting up with Herbert for lunch and as usual, he shared so much on his encounter in his relationship. I was pretty shock to hear that he gonna get married Jan next year. He said he just started relationship a week ago. Wow, that is unbelievable. Indeed God is working in his relationship encounter. Hmm..another new couple. This week itself I've known of 2 new couples: Herbert and Roland.
After that I went shopping alone in BB Plaza, quite a varieties of clothing and cute stuff but didn't buy anything. No sales, got to wait for next year. After shopping around, supposed to meet up with Jenny but she couldn't make it last minutes, so I manage to grab Kawai to accompany me for dinner - that's my night.
Sat is a full day, probably not, only half day conference. Skip the last concurrent session to go KLCC for movie. Meet up Jaime and my old old long lost coursemate- Foo Chee Keong, hearing the updates, life has been going well with others, promotion, family, kids. Cool! I watched "CLICK" with Kawai, enter late- the movie quite alright, good story line about family. Rating, ok only.
Yeah, I'm now in Lighthouse Fellowship, Kawai's room. He is sleeping soundly, yes, must be very tired accompanying me go shopping and movie. Don't wanna wake him up, let him sleep. Today's service is long, 3 hours plus- more on ministering. Ps Joseph ministered to the people, God is ministering His presence in the church. I was so touched and enlighten to see God moved mightily in the place- people touched, cried and transform in the heart. The worship was great, I enjoy it so much. Maybe it's also because I'm familiar with the worship songs, only a few that I never heard before but can catch up after a few times singing. Pastor shared on book of Joshua 23, about finding the rest in His presence. About holding fast to His comendment so that we don't swayed from left to right, but to stand steadfast. Very timely message. I seen the church has grown, people coming out giving testimony and giving glory to God for what He has done. Overall it's a blessing.
Wow, I'm tired, got to end this blog and it's time to go to airport. Tomorrow will be another week of challenges. Praise God for the wonderful week....Penang here I come :P He's sleeping like a baby, let him...Oh boy, I'm so tired!
Monday, September 04, 2006
Singapore: Sweet and Sour
4th September 2006,
5.05pm Monday. Has been a long holidays 4days, 3 nite in Singapore. Long holidays, sweet and sour memories. There's a phrase: To write the hurts on the sand, and crave the blessings on the stone, something like that. I shouldn't have write it in the blog, probably the brief one. Singapore trip still a good trip after all that happen. It's tiring, yet fulfilling. I was blessed, and hurt at the same time. Yet all that happen is meant something- a lesson to learn. I see the world is just so big, many many people, different in character- weakness to able to acccept. I just realise I wasn't a patience person, I can just see the fault in others yet I discover the real flaw in myself which require correction. A person that is bitter inside, and have yet to learn the art of forgiveness, self confidence. I was so mindful of what others said about me, the comments others posted to me on my character, and entertain the thought that I'm not well enough. There's a saying: What you say is who you are. And if I continue to be like that, it will destroy whatever good things the Lord want to do in my life.
Sweet memories- meeting up with Heong Beng, and he shared with us how the Lord lead him in the workplace, how he manage to get leave for his wedding anniversary, and how the Lord continue to speak to him in his circumstances. I learn frm him, a childlike faith, a nice man. I meet up with Olivia, she's 7 months pregnant. Wow, so fats huh? She drove me back from Orchard to Yishun and we cook pasta together for dinner. Nice home, well decorated with small little garden. We chatted and watch Singapore Idol till about 10.30pm then they drop me at Yishun MRT. I took MRT back Bukit Gombak, and waited 1 1/2 hours for Felix to come back to open the door. Angry, exhausted but still able to sleep well.
Next day, meet up with Dr Teoh. Catch up for a while on the updates, and he showed us his little daughter's picture. Very nice, cute. Then go around Suntect City and Esplanade, after that take a MRT back Johor all by myself. Have a great fellowship with Celina, and her CGL Katrynn, then Saturday back Singapore to take bus back Penang. Reached Pg 6.00am, back home sleep a while, then wake up to go church for ushering. Thanks my holidays. Sweet and Sour...anyhow it's still enjoyable holidays.
5.05pm Monday. Has been a long holidays 4days, 3 nite in Singapore. Long holidays, sweet and sour memories. There's a phrase: To write the hurts on the sand, and crave the blessings on the stone, something like that. I shouldn't have write it in the blog, probably the brief one. Singapore trip still a good trip after all that happen. It's tiring, yet fulfilling. I was blessed, and hurt at the same time. Yet all that happen is meant something- a lesson to learn. I see the world is just so big, many many people, different in character- weakness to able to acccept. I just realise I wasn't a patience person, I can just see the fault in others yet I discover the real flaw in myself which require correction. A person that is bitter inside, and have yet to learn the art of forgiveness, self confidence. I was so mindful of what others said about me, the comments others posted to me on my character, and entertain the thought that I'm not well enough. There's a saying: What you say is who you are. And if I continue to be like that, it will destroy whatever good things the Lord want to do in my life.
Sweet memories- meeting up with Heong Beng, and he shared with us how the Lord lead him in the workplace, how he manage to get leave for his wedding anniversary, and how the Lord continue to speak to him in his circumstances. I learn frm him, a childlike faith, a nice man. I meet up with Olivia, she's 7 months pregnant. Wow, so fats huh? She drove me back from Orchard to Yishun and we cook pasta together for dinner. Nice home, well decorated with small little garden. We chatted and watch Singapore Idol till about 10.30pm then they drop me at Yishun MRT. I took MRT back Bukit Gombak, and waited 1 1/2 hours for Felix to come back to open the door. Angry, exhausted but still able to sleep well.
Next day, meet up with Dr Teoh. Catch up for a while on the updates, and he showed us his little daughter's picture. Very nice, cute. Then go around Suntect City and Esplanade, after that take a MRT back Johor all by myself. Have a great fellowship with Celina, and her CGL Katrynn, then Saturday back Singapore to take bus back Penang. Reached Pg 6.00am, back home sleep a while, then wake up to go church for ushering. Thanks my holidays. Sweet and Sour...anyhow it's still enjoyable holidays.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Singapore, second trip
28th August 2006,
5.43pm, Monday. Today is a very busy day- running up and down, discuss on the Pharmacy Reno and design. Very tired and sleepy. Got headache till it reached my eyes. Now looking at the computer, tired.
Yup, I'm going Singapore tomorrow 8.30pm bus. Expected to reach Singapore the next day morning. Yes, my 2nd trip. 1st trip by SIA flight to NCC for attachment, then this time is just some sort of holidays. I hope it's a holidays, hope won't ended up getting more tired. I don't really like travelling- but since I have passport can just make use of my passport, and can meet up sister. Has not been traveling with bus for years, I've just prepared myself few tabs of Dramamine and Pharmaton, hopefully it will help my motion sickness and tiredness. Quite a last minute thing, we don't really plan- Marcus suggested to go, and we join in...so last minute but thank God my boss approve the leave. Hopefully things will be well....
5.43pm, Monday. Today is a very busy day- running up and down, discuss on the Pharmacy Reno and design. Very tired and sleepy. Got headache till it reached my eyes. Now looking at the computer, tired.
Yup, I'm going Singapore tomorrow 8.30pm bus. Expected to reach Singapore the next day morning. Yes, my 2nd trip. 1st trip by SIA flight to NCC for attachment, then this time is just some sort of holidays. I hope it's a holidays, hope won't ended up getting more tired. I don't really like travelling- but since I have passport can just make use of my passport, and can meet up sister. Has not been traveling with bus for years, I've just prepared myself few tabs of Dramamine and Pharmaton, hopefully it will help my motion sickness and tiredness. Quite a last minute thing, we don't really plan- Marcus suggested to go, and we join in...so last minute but thank God my boss approve the leave. Hopefully things will be well....
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Rev Roy Durman Healing Rally
23th August 2006,
5.29pm Tuesday. Today time flies, we had IT training for our new Hospital Information System, e-THIS. Just brush up on few Drug Master and to know the feature before we go LIVE. Yes, am excited. A system will never be perfect, there's pro and cons. A bit not flexible, but okay. Praise God the staff are positive to learn. I hope not to get much complaint...hopefully things will work out well.
Last Sat is healing rally by Rev Roy Durman. I did not attend the Friday session. It's 3-days (Thurs, Fri, Sat) but I only attend the last day. I believe in healing. I believe God can heal. God is the healer. Each time talking about healing, I just reflect back the experience with daddy. Fighting cancer, battling with cancer wasn't a good experience at all. It leave a mark in my life. Not entirely a painful mark, yes-indeed it's so painful, seeing your love one suffer and in pain. I remember how I question God, how much tears have I shed, literally crying myself to sleep. Praying pressing on, yet it doesn't seem to see the improvement, but daddy condition getting worse till his last breathe. I can feel how painful it was. But the only encouraging experience is Daddy last word before his final time: "The Lord is my Lord and Savior". That is the only happy ending. Tears shed, pain and sadness mixed with joy. We're crying seeing Daddy leaving us, but Daddy is crying because he's gonna be with God.
Indeed the experience is deep. I'm in medical background, I hope with my knowledge of medical equation, my faith will still stand strong. Yes, God can heal, and we are to pray..and God hear our prayer, and answer according to His will. The healing rally is awesome, it's an eye opener for me to see with my own 2 eys so many people received healing. I'm helping in Testimony Team, where we're to write up testimony of those who's healed. Praise God! Indeed it's not man's work, but it's God's work. He is the same Yesterday, Today, and Forever. He healed in the Ancient time, yes- now He can heal too.
The blind can see, the lame can walk, Amen, Amen, Amen! I seen an old man in wheelchair able to walk again. After being prayed over, the pastor asked him to come out of the wheelchair and he did, and he can walk, he can jump, he can run. The man got accident 15 years ago with left eye blinded because of the accident, got healed. "I was blind but now I can see" Amen! A man with one leg shorter than another now became normal. A young girl with squint eyes now back to normal, Awesome! So many people rushing through to be prayed for, so many needs, so many non-believers that need the "Hope".
Abba Father, I believe in You Lord, You are the ame Yesterday, Today, and Forever. Thank You for Your work- healing people, thank You for revealing to me so many needs of the people. Yes, Lord, people need the Lord...people need You Lord. So many people need You. Father, help me to be the light wherever I go..so that people can see You through me Lord. Yes Father, I wanna follow You, just to follow You and You'll make me fisher of men. Amen!
5.29pm Tuesday. Today time flies, we had IT training for our new Hospital Information System, e-THIS. Just brush up on few Drug Master and to know the feature before we go LIVE. Yes, am excited. A system will never be perfect, there's pro and cons. A bit not flexible, but okay. Praise God the staff are positive to learn. I hope not to get much complaint...hopefully things will work out well.
Last Sat is healing rally by Rev Roy Durman. I did not attend the Friday session. It's 3-days (Thurs, Fri, Sat) but I only attend the last day. I believe in healing. I believe God can heal. God is the healer. Each time talking about healing, I just reflect back the experience with daddy. Fighting cancer, battling with cancer wasn't a good experience at all. It leave a mark in my life. Not entirely a painful mark, yes-indeed it's so painful, seeing your love one suffer and in pain. I remember how I question God, how much tears have I shed, literally crying myself to sleep. Praying pressing on, yet it doesn't seem to see the improvement, but daddy condition getting worse till his last breathe. I can feel how painful it was. But the only encouraging experience is Daddy last word before his final time: "The Lord is my Lord and Savior". That is the only happy ending. Tears shed, pain and sadness mixed with joy. We're crying seeing Daddy leaving us, but Daddy is crying because he's gonna be with God.
Indeed the experience is deep. I'm in medical background, I hope with my knowledge of medical equation, my faith will still stand strong. Yes, God can heal, and we are to pray..and God hear our prayer, and answer according to His will. The healing rally is awesome, it's an eye opener for me to see with my own 2 eys so many people received healing. I'm helping in Testimony Team, where we're to write up testimony of those who's healed. Praise God! Indeed it's not man's work, but it's God's work. He is the same Yesterday, Today, and Forever. He healed in the Ancient time, yes- now He can heal too.
The blind can see, the lame can walk, Amen, Amen, Amen! I seen an old man in wheelchair able to walk again. After being prayed over, the pastor asked him to come out of the wheelchair and he did, and he can walk, he can jump, he can run. The man got accident 15 years ago with left eye blinded because of the accident, got healed. "I was blind but now I can see" Amen! A man with one leg shorter than another now became normal. A young girl with squint eyes now back to normal, Awesome! So many people rushing through to be prayed for, so many needs, so many non-believers that need the "Hope".
Abba Father, I believe in You Lord, You are the ame Yesterday, Today, and Forever. Thank You for Your work- healing people, thank You for revealing to me so many needs of the people. Yes, Lord, people need the Lord...people need You Lord. So many people need You. Father, help me to be the light wherever I go..so that people can see You through me Lord. Yes Father, I wanna follow You, just to follow You and You'll make me fisher of men. Amen!
Monday, August 14, 2006
Touch N Go ?
14th August 2006,
5.14pm Monday Cool. Yeah, busy weekends. Whole day Saturday working and CVS conference. Yes, learned a lot, but still so tiring. Sleep the earliest ever 10pm already knock off. Sunday conference continued on....till lunch, then Family Day. Tiring yet fulfilling. This year we don't have Family Camp, so Family Day organised in Penang to cater more members to participate. My team (Yellow) won 3rd Prize.
Yeah, I join Mawar Team. Had been questioned many many times, a lot people has been asking me which Cell have I decided to join. Each time the question posted, I felt just speechless. By my floating, will I be aencouraging others to float to other Cell? Will my act giving approval to others that it's okie to float? Yeah, Andrew has been asking me many times, whether to join JOC, Jon asked, Ps. Sam asked. I really don't know. At this point I'm quite comfortable going around CGs, getting to know more people, exposing myself to different types of CGs. Andrew point out one thing, quite strong Word, but it's true: "Touch and Go". Am I touching and just go? Not settling down and grow. True indeed. Maybe I am still struggling on myself- just don't want to decide too fast and want more 'resting' time. Well...I don't think anyone can identify with such feeling. I told others- hmmm....will decide soon, will decide soon, probably end of the year. Well, maybe I'm just too selfish, keep delaying. Yet I'm assured the time will come for me to find the place of belonging, a place to settle down, grow and serve again...it's just a matter of the right time, right place. Just need to be prayerful, and look forward. God-driven and not Man-driven.
5.14pm Monday Cool. Yeah, busy weekends. Whole day Saturday working and CVS conference. Yes, learned a lot, but still so tiring. Sleep the earliest ever 10pm already knock off. Sunday conference continued on....till lunch, then Family Day. Tiring yet fulfilling. This year we don't have Family Camp, so Family Day organised in Penang to cater more members to participate. My team (Yellow) won 3rd Prize.
Yeah, I join Mawar Team. Had been questioned many many times, a lot people has been asking me which Cell have I decided to join. Each time the question posted, I felt just speechless. By my floating, will I be aencouraging others to float to other Cell? Will my act giving approval to others that it's okie to float? Yeah, Andrew has been asking me many times, whether to join JOC, Jon asked, Ps. Sam asked. I really don't know. At this point I'm quite comfortable going around CGs, getting to know more people, exposing myself to different types of CGs. Andrew point out one thing, quite strong Word, but it's true: "Touch and Go". Am I touching and just go? Not settling down and grow. True indeed. Maybe I am still struggling on myself- just don't want to decide too fast and want more 'resting' time. Well...I don't think anyone can identify with such feeling. I told others- hmmm....will decide soon, will decide soon, probably end of the year. Well, maybe I'm just too selfish, keep delaying. Yet I'm assured the time will come for me to find the place of belonging, a place to settle down, grow and serve again...it's just a matter of the right time, right place. Just need to be prayerful, and look forward. God-driven and not Man-driven.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Hospital Visit to General Hospital Penang
6th August, 2006
Hospital Visit Report (extracted from Roland's mail)
Participants: Shirley Moy, Benji, Cindy Chan, Yueh Nee, Alex Teh, Lionel Koh, Jason Nga, Patras Masih, Andrew Khoo, Shiao Yen, Phei Phei, Deborah Nga, Jason Lee, Helena Wong, Ai Ling, Roland Tang
Time: 4:30pm to 6.30pm
The Group who visited the GH on Sunday (08/06)
Purpose and Objective
To bring a group out to be exposed to doing evangelistic efforts in the hospital, for the zone members to work together, share the Good News of Jesus in the hospital, and hope to those who were losing them. The work consists of primarily 3 cell groups (A2J, Jars of Clay and Zion). We also had the pleasure of Benji (CGL for Desa-U) to support the work.
The Evening
The group first started assembling at the front of Pekaka Square, at the foyer, from 4pm. We were slightly delayed as some came in late. The briefing was done by Roland at 4.25pm, and these were the points:
The visit is to see the needy in the hospital, to share the Good News where possible to the patients
To bring hope to those who were losing them
Before we departed from Pekaka Square, we all prayed, holding hands, to ask God to grant us boldness and strength to share the Good News and the hope that abides in us. We also prayed for unity, that there would be no confusion from the whole arrangement, but the complementing of strength, one for another.
We arrived at the hospital at 5.10pm. This is where the pairings were done.
The pairings are:
Jason Nga & Tan Phei Phei
Shirley Moy, Yueh Nee and Jason Lee
Benji and Ai Ling
Deborah an Helena
Lionel and Alex
Cindy, Andrew and Shiao Yen
Patras and Roland
We were divided to the different floor of Block C, where the general ward was. Lionel, Alex, Cindy, Andrew and Shiao Yen did the children’s ward, while the others focused on the adults.
There was quite a fair bit of ground covered. Many patients were ministered to. Many prayers were offered for the patients, to ask for God’s healing and His salvation.
Some highlights:
1 salvation recorded – an Indian man named Selva Kumar
16 prayers lifted for the sick and needy
6 of the children were prayed for/over
Lowlights:
5 refused prayer, because of the faith incompatibility
Insufficient time (time management, and also visiting hours limitation)
What we found from the visit?
Most patients we approached were open and willing to share, because they needed someone they could talk to. (Generally, we approached those who were lonely)
Some of them have been in the hospital for quite sometime, perhaps 1 month or even months. We managed to find Helen (the girl from Wesley in coma) – she seemed more receptive, when asked to be prayed over, she blinked her eye.
One woman had a lot of needs (looking for clothes and pampers) as she had some urinary problems (always wetting the bed).
What can we do better?
For certain, we needed to improve on time (punctuality). It would have been better if the visiting hours were longer. And of course, if we observed time.
Language – Some pairings did not have strong language commands in the dialects (especially Hokkien). Need to work on this.
Prepare name cards that would point patients to the church, for some form of follow up to be done.
A little gift for the patients would be nice.
Mental preparation – adequate training to be given before the visit would surely help to cover more grounds.
We noted that there were lots of needs. Some patients asked for material support, to aid their need. Some sought prayer. We managed to pray for at least 1 Malay man, and shared the hope of Jesus.
Conclusion
This is surely an opening by exposing the many facets of ministry in service, to open to the ministry of evangelism.
By means of this, it is hopeful that it would spur or motivate us to more evangelism to the less fortunate in the near future.
Prayer
Father, we thank You for a wonderful and fruitful ministry with the patients in the hospital. Indeed we know that You were with us, and for us, to help us and guide us in what we needed to do. And now we give You praise, because we have heard so many testimonies of Your faithfulness. Thank You for being our help in the time of need, we are grateful. We ask that You will continue to inspire us, and move in us with compassion to bring hope to those who are in need of hope in the hospital. Move our hearts, that our hearts may beat with Yours. We thank You, and pray all these, in Jesus most precious and wonderful name, Amen!
Hospital Visit Report (extracted from Roland's mail)
Participants: Shirley Moy, Benji, Cindy Chan, Yueh Nee, Alex Teh, Lionel Koh, Jason Nga, Patras Masih, Andrew Khoo, Shiao Yen, Phei Phei, Deborah Nga, Jason Lee, Helena Wong, Ai Ling, Roland Tang
Time: 4:30pm to 6.30pm
The Group who visited the GH on Sunday (08/06)
Purpose and Objective
To bring a group out to be exposed to doing evangelistic efforts in the hospital, for the zone members to work together, share the Good News of Jesus in the hospital, and hope to those who were losing them. The work consists of primarily 3 cell groups (A2J, Jars of Clay and Zion). We also had the pleasure of Benji (CGL for Desa-U) to support the work.
The Evening
The group first started assembling at the front of Pekaka Square, at the foyer, from 4pm. We were slightly delayed as some came in late. The briefing was done by Roland at 4.25pm, and these were the points:
The visit is to see the needy in the hospital, to share the Good News where possible to the patients
To bring hope to those who were losing them
Before we departed from Pekaka Square, we all prayed, holding hands, to ask God to grant us boldness and strength to share the Good News and the hope that abides in us. We also prayed for unity, that there would be no confusion from the whole arrangement, but the complementing of strength, one for another.
We arrived at the hospital at 5.10pm. This is where the pairings were done.
The pairings are:
Jason Nga & Tan Phei Phei
Shirley Moy, Yueh Nee and Jason Lee
Benji and Ai Ling
Deborah an Helena
Lionel and Alex
Cindy, Andrew and Shiao Yen
Patras and Roland
We were divided to the different floor of Block C, where the general ward was. Lionel, Alex, Cindy, Andrew and Shiao Yen did the children’s ward, while the others focused on the adults.
There was quite a fair bit of ground covered. Many patients were ministered to. Many prayers were offered for the patients, to ask for God’s healing and His salvation.
Some highlights:
1 salvation recorded – an Indian man named Selva Kumar
16 prayers lifted for the sick and needy
6 of the children were prayed for/over
Lowlights:
5 refused prayer, because of the faith incompatibility
Insufficient time (time management, and also visiting hours limitation)
What we found from the visit?
Most patients we approached were open and willing to share, because they needed someone they could talk to. (Generally, we approached those who were lonely)
Some of them have been in the hospital for quite sometime, perhaps 1 month or even months. We managed to find Helen (the girl from Wesley in coma) – she seemed more receptive, when asked to be prayed over, she blinked her eye.
One woman had a lot of needs (looking for clothes and pampers) as she had some urinary problems (always wetting the bed).
What can we do better?
For certain, we needed to improve on time (punctuality). It would have been better if the visiting hours were longer. And of course, if we observed time.
Language – Some pairings did not have strong language commands in the dialects (especially Hokkien). Need to work on this.
Prepare name cards that would point patients to the church, for some form of follow up to be done.
A little gift for the patients would be nice.
Mental preparation – adequate training to be given before the visit would surely help to cover more grounds.
We noted that there were lots of needs. Some patients asked for material support, to aid their need. Some sought prayer. We managed to pray for at least 1 Malay man, and shared the hope of Jesus.
Conclusion
This is surely an opening by exposing the many facets of ministry in service, to open to the ministry of evangelism.
By means of this, it is hopeful that it would spur or motivate us to more evangelism to the less fortunate in the near future.
Prayer
Father, we thank You for a wonderful and fruitful ministry with the patients in the hospital. Indeed we know that You were with us, and for us, to help us and guide us in what we needed to do. And now we give You praise, because we have heard so many testimonies of Your faithfulness. Thank You for being our help in the time of need, we are grateful. We ask that You will continue to inspire us, and move in us with compassion to bring hope to those who are in need of hope in the hospital. Move our hearts, that our hearts may beat with Yours. We thank You, and pray all these, in Jesus most precious and wonderful name, Amen!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
An eventful Sunday III
8th August 2006,
5.18pm. Tuesday. Yes, I'm still in the office. Want to blog down the incidence on Sunday before logging off. Today was alright, training up Raz for CDR in the morning, then afternoon went for Physio and Anaes. Meeting.
Sunday was indeed a great experience. We went for Hospital visitation, initiated by Roland and Deborah. It's not my first time of such visitation, but most of my hospital visitation is visiting Christian. I remember 2 years back I do visit my staff's son who undergo operation because of his uneven kidney, which cause infection and impairment. It takes lots of boldness to ask if I can pray for the little boy. Praise God, the mother is quite open and allowed me to lay hands and pray. The last time I ever pray for sick people was in Lam Wah Ee, visiting Yueh Nee's mum which diagnosed with breast cancer.
But this hospital visitation is different. We're going in the General Hospital into the wards, with empty hands, but just with a heart to search out to bring hope to the patients. It's not only takes courage and such boldness to walk to patients bed and introduce ourselves, but it also bring our heart to feel for them, to have the love, to bring hope to the hopeless and needy. Evangelism, speaking out with love, introducing people to the love and hope we ave in Christ. It's very encouraging when the patients openned to us, allowing us to pray for them. One opportunity after the other,..the harvest is plentiful, very much plentiful but the workers are few. It's the sense of joy and satisfaction, seeing the reaping of one soul. Praise God, Benji lead one patient to Christ, it's awesome! The whole heaven rejoices! I'm so encouraged, we should have challenged Aunty Naya to accept Christ...anyhow, it's all by the move of the Spirit. All glory to Him. It was truly an eventful Sunday- we look forward for the next trip.
In the evening we went for Mrs. Chan's funeral. It's a sudden news. Mrs. Chan has been with us since the early startoff of EPCC, in the old Sanctuary. I can still remember Mrs. Chan accepted Christ, learning to grow thru' her Christian life, learning to pray, and loving God. And I'm so encouraged to see Un. Ronnie accepted Christ after a while. Yes, we're in the Usher team, she's a wonderful lady, always giving her best in the little thing she can do. Ever faithful servant, a women after God's own heart- childlike and faithful. Her life is a testimony to a lot of people...
Ponder through life,....the cycle of life. I've lost my Daddy, and I missed him so so much. Yes, "berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu dipikul". It won't be easy for the family, but I believe with God's grace things will able to work out well. All things work for good for those who love God...There's always a silver lining below the clouds. Life goes on...We got to live a purposeful life. I prayed for Mum, she's the one and only I have right now. Seeing her getting older really make my heart ache. Last night she said she urinate blood. I was afraid, I don't want to see anything ever happen to her. Praise God, I just called- she said she's alright, urine clear and it's normal. Yes, even though sometimes I do argue and quarel with mummy, but Mummy still mummy...even tho' we quarel, things will get back well the next day. I got to evaluate how I treated Mum...no more with expectation, but to expect myself to do the best I can for her...Yes, Mummy I love you!
5.18pm. Tuesday. Yes, I'm still in the office. Want to blog down the incidence on Sunday before logging off. Today was alright, training up Raz for CDR in the morning, then afternoon went for Physio and Anaes. Meeting.
Sunday was indeed a great experience. We went for Hospital visitation, initiated by Roland and Deborah. It's not my first time of such visitation, but most of my hospital visitation is visiting Christian. I remember 2 years back I do visit my staff's son who undergo operation because of his uneven kidney, which cause infection and impairment. It takes lots of boldness to ask if I can pray for the little boy. Praise God, the mother is quite open and allowed me to lay hands and pray. The last time I ever pray for sick people was in Lam Wah Ee, visiting Yueh Nee's mum which diagnosed with breast cancer.
But this hospital visitation is different. We're going in the General Hospital into the wards, with empty hands, but just with a heart to search out to bring hope to the patients. It's not only takes courage and such boldness to walk to patients bed and introduce ourselves, but it also bring our heart to feel for them, to have the love, to bring hope to the hopeless and needy. Evangelism, speaking out with love, introducing people to the love and hope we ave in Christ. It's very encouraging when the patients openned to us, allowing us to pray for them. One opportunity after the other,..the harvest is plentiful, very much plentiful but the workers are few. It's the sense of joy and satisfaction, seeing the reaping of one soul. Praise God, Benji lead one patient to Christ, it's awesome! The whole heaven rejoices! I'm so encouraged, we should have challenged Aunty Naya to accept Christ...anyhow, it's all by the move of the Spirit. All glory to Him. It was truly an eventful Sunday- we look forward for the next trip.
In the evening we went for Mrs. Chan's funeral. It's a sudden news. Mrs. Chan has been with us since the early startoff of EPCC, in the old Sanctuary. I can still remember Mrs. Chan accepted Christ, learning to grow thru' her Christian life, learning to pray, and loving God. And I'm so encouraged to see Un. Ronnie accepted Christ after a while. Yes, we're in the Usher team, she's a wonderful lady, always giving her best in the little thing she can do. Ever faithful servant, a women after God's own heart- childlike and faithful. Her life is a testimony to a lot of people...
Ponder through life,....the cycle of life. I've lost my Daddy, and I missed him so so much. Yes, "berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu dipikul". It won't be easy for the family, but I believe with God's grace things will able to work out well. All things work for good for those who love God...There's always a silver lining below the clouds. Life goes on...We got to live a purposeful life. I prayed for Mum, she's the one and only I have right now. Seeing her getting older really make my heart ache. Last night she said she urinate blood. I was afraid, I don't want to see anything ever happen to her. Praise God, I just called- she said she's alright, urine clear and it's normal. Yes, even though sometimes I do argue and quarel with mummy, but Mummy still mummy...even tho' we quarel, things will get back well the next day. I got to evaluate how I treated Mum...no more with expectation, but to expect myself to do the best I can for her...Yes, Mummy I love you!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Heal me O Lord, and I will be Healed, Save me and I will be saved..
5th August 2006,
1.00pm, Saturday. Yeah, it's time to go home. Saturday half day. Tired, body aching. Pain at my left heel, intensified during walking and after waking up in the morning. Dr. George said X-Ray shown spondilytis (tiny spur) seen at the heel, but the pelvic bone shown normal. Can't believe as such age can get spur, usually spur happen in elderly. Oh dear, that means aging process is really happening. Reaching 30's...really really can't believe it. With such age, body really weaken. Mum always nag me for not taking good care of myself: didn't wear proper shoes, don't take much fruits and vege, sleep so late, don't want to see doc, bla bla bla...I don't seem to improve even after the nagging. But now, when seeing a lot bad result, I begin to get scared. Few days ago, I went for Blood check. It's annual Blood check for those doing CDR: FBC, LFT, BUSE. The others level is good, normal range, but my LFT is high, ALT: 69, AST: 41. I got a shock, how can my liver been deteriorating. I'm quite worried, called up Dr. George, he said probably because stress or other drugs that I've been taking. Funny to think about it, I don't take much drugs, neither do I have much stress. Hmmm...reflecting back my pass medical history, so far not much of problem. Yeah, my dad have liver problem, but I've taken Hepatitis B vaccination.
A few times I felt chest pain and bones pain all over. There's one incident wake up can't able to breath. O Lord, I need Your healing hands. Lord heal me, I pray. Heal me O Lord, and I will be healed, save me and I will be saved...this is my prayer...in You I find strength and help in times of need.
1.00pm, Saturday. Yeah, it's time to go home. Saturday half day. Tired, body aching. Pain at my left heel, intensified during walking and after waking up in the morning. Dr. George said X-Ray shown spondilytis (tiny spur) seen at the heel, but the pelvic bone shown normal. Can't believe as such age can get spur, usually spur happen in elderly. Oh dear, that means aging process is really happening. Reaching 30's...really really can't believe it. With such age, body really weaken. Mum always nag me for not taking good care of myself: didn't wear proper shoes, don't take much fruits and vege, sleep so late, don't want to see doc, bla bla bla...I don't seem to improve even after the nagging. But now, when seeing a lot bad result, I begin to get scared. Few days ago, I went for Blood check. It's annual Blood check for those doing CDR: FBC, LFT, BUSE. The others level is good, normal range, but my LFT is high, ALT: 69, AST: 41. I got a shock, how can my liver been deteriorating. I'm quite worried, called up Dr. George, he said probably because stress or other drugs that I've been taking. Funny to think about it, I don't take much drugs, neither do I have much stress. Hmmm...reflecting back my pass medical history, so far not much of problem. Yeah, my dad have liver problem, but I've taken Hepatitis B vaccination.
A few times I felt chest pain and bones pain all over. There's one incident wake up can't able to breath. O Lord, I need Your healing hands. Lord heal me, I pray. Heal me O Lord, and I will be healed, save me and I will be saved...this is my prayer...in You I find strength and help in times of need.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Succesful discussion, Praise God!
3th August 2006,
5.28pm, Thurs. Waiting to go to Pfizer talk. Today is okie. Had a discussion with Mr Koh and Ivan regarding repositioning of counters. Earlier on, Ivan insisted to maintain counter 1, 4 and 8. But I have different proposal, to help the Pharmacy staff work more efficiently. Yeap, the discussion was alright, praise God! Mr. Koh was pretty supportive, with his presence a lot things able to be settled well. Finally I manage to kill 2 birds with one stone. We have decided to reposition the counters, not only the Dispensing Counters but also the Cashiers..and to renovate the area, gonna have a new look. I hope the solution that we have come out with will come to pass, not just mere talking. I really hope the management will do what they had promised. Today was alright, discussion is good, work as usual. Waiting for Pfizer talk later in the evening, not sure what I'm gonna do here. Another 2 hours to go, so doing some blogging. Celina went back yesterday, with Brandon. Hmm...not too sure about their relationship, a while good, a while bad. Not sure what Celina really wanted. Am not in the position to give inputs, no experience. Hope she will be coping well. She has been really independant. I believe it's God plan for her to join UKM instead of USM...God is working in her, indeed He is...and will, forever.
5.28pm, Thurs. Waiting to go to Pfizer talk. Today is okie. Had a discussion with Mr Koh and Ivan regarding repositioning of counters. Earlier on, Ivan insisted to maintain counter 1, 4 and 8. But I have different proposal, to help the Pharmacy staff work more efficiently. Yeap, the discussion was alright, praise God! Mr. Koh was pretty supportive, with his presence a lot things able to be settled well. Finally I manage to kill 2 birds with one stone. We have decided to reposition the counters, not only the Dispensing Counters but also the Cashiers..and to renovate the area, gonna have a new look. I hope the solution that we have come out with will come to pass, not just mere talking. I really hope the management will do what they had promised. Today was alright, discussion is good, work as usual. Waiting for Pfizer talk later in the evening, not sure what I'm gonna do here. Another 2 hours to go, so doing some blogging. Celina went back yesterday, with Brandon. Hmm...not too sure about their relationship, a while good, a while bad. Not sure what Celina really wanted. Am not in the position to give inputs, no experience. Hope she will be coping well. She has been really independant. I believe it's God plan for her to join UKM instead of USM...God is working in her, indeed He is...and will, forever.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Transparency, accountability
29th July 2006,
1.21pm Saturday. Yeap, half day. Today's patient load is not that high, quite relief now. Very tired, sleep around 2 am yesterday nite. I attend JOC yesterday, Andrew lead the group, sharing on JOC mission and vision- Transparency, sharing on Ps139. I couldn't find the place, round the taman for many many rounds- finally give up, call Andrew to help give direction. JOC have a strong worship. I enjoyed the worship the most, it boost everyone before the sharing- this will make sharing easier to absorb by members. Sleep at 2 am, tired but it's worth the time spent. Had a drink with Andrew after CG, has been a while since the last time meet. I'm blessed, to know him...and appreciate his openness and willingness to share his life experience with me. God has been working well, and His fingerprint is so real in his life, for this I'm thankful...Thanks Andrew, for being my brother!
Last week sermon Pr. shared his heart out in regards to transparency among Christian, it's after Men's Retreat. ACTS also stressed on transparency, and CG do talk about that as well. It seems that this week is what the Lord wants to deliver on the message on transparency.
James 5:16 is the main verse:
16Confess to one another therefore your faults (your slips, your false steps, your offenses, your sins) and pray [also] for one another, that you may be healed and restored [to a spiritual tone of mind and heart]. The earnest (heartfelt, continued) prayer of a righteous man makes tremendous power available [dynamic in its working].Amplified Bible
It teach us how we should pray? Openly, privately, accountability to one another. All sins and fall short of God's glory. Everyday we're sinning, unconciously or conciously. And many times the devil use the sins to threaten us, condemn us. It's so difficult to be victorious over sins. James 5 is so relevent- to confess to one another of our fault (Amplified Bible), trespasses (NKJV), and PRAY for one another- talk about support, accountability, so that you may be HEALED and RESTORED. The earnest prayer (heartfelt, continued, fervent) is dynamic. That is from Amplified Bible. Accountability with one another, the support and prayer by fellow Christian will lift up the burdens, and lead us to go on, to press on for His Glory- to be accountable for us to grow.
I'm asking myself- do I have any accountable friends? What is the step towards transparency and accountability? First- the trust, common ground, it take humility to tell others our sins, our wrongdoing, it takes effort to open up, to trust and to be vulnerable...and for one I'm sure I am not. I rarely open up. Most of the time, others open up to me- is it to do with pride? Or it's just that I'm chossy. Just too chossy on the person for me to share?
Yes Lord, I've heard of Your Word, how important for us to be transparent, not of being hypocrite, but be openned and transparent with one another. Father, I'm open before you, I'm transparent before you, I tear all the walls open and laid it bare before You. You know my struggles... You have searched me and known me, You know my sitting down and my rising up, You understand my thought afar off.. You know it all, I'm willing Lord, first to be transparent before You, acknowledge my sins and shortcoming before You, Lord help me, restore me to Your purpose, lead me to Your everlasting.
1.21pm Saturday. Yeap, half day. Today's patient load is not that high, quite relief now. Very tired, sleep around 2 am yesterday nite. I attend JOC yesterday, Andrew lead the group, sharing on JOC mission and vision- Transparency, sharing on Ps139. I couldn't find the place, round the taman for many many rounds- finally give up, call Andrew to help give direction. JOC have a strong worship. I enjoyed the worship the most, it boost everyone before the sharing- this will make sharing easier to absorb by members. Sleep at 2 am, tired but it's worth the time spent. Had a drink with Andrew after CG, has been a while since the last time meet. I'm blessed, to know him...and appreciate his openness and willingness to share his life experience with me. God has been working well, and His fingerprint is so real in his life, for this I'm thankful...Thanks Andrew, for being my brother!
Last week sermon Pr. shared his heart out in regards to transparency among Christian, it's after Men's Retreat. ACTS also stressed on transparency, and CG do talk about that as well. It seems that this week is what the Lord wants to deliver on the message on transparency.
James 5:16 is the main verse:
16Confess to one another therefore your faults (your slips, your false steps, your offenses, your sins) and pray [also] for one another, that you may be healed and restored [to a spiritual tone of mind and heart]. The earnest (heartfelt, continued) prayer of a righteous man makes tremendous power available [dynamic in its working].Amplified Bible
It teach us how we should pray? Openly, privately, accountability to one another. All sins and fall short of God's glory. Everyday we're sinning, unconciously or conciously. And many times the devil use the sins to threaten us, condemn us. It's so difficult to be victorious over sins. James 5 is so relevent- to confess to one another of our fault (Amplified Bible), trespasses (NKJV), and PRAY for one another- talk about support, accountability, so that you may be HEALED and RESTORED. The earnest prayer (heartfelt, continued, fervent) is dynamic. That is from Amplified Bible. Accountability with one another, the support and prayer by fellow Christian will lift up the burdens, and lead us to go on, to press on for His Glory- to be accountable for us to grow.
I'm asking myself- do I have any accountable friends? What is the step towards transparency and accountability? First- the trust, common ground, it take humility to tell others our sins, our wrongdoing, it takes effort to open up, to trust and to be vulnerable...and for one I'm sure I am not. I rarely open up. Most of the time, others open up to me- is it to do with pride? Or it's just that I'm chossy. Just too chossy on the person for me to share?
Yes Lord, I've heard of Your Word, how important for us to be transparent, not of being hypocrite, but be openned and transparent with one another. Father, I'm open before you, I'm transparent before you, I tear all the walls open and laid it bare before You. You know my struggles... You have searched me and known me, You know my sitting down and my rising up, You understand my thought afar off.. You know it all, I'm willing Lord, first to be transparent before You, acknowledge my sins and shortcoming before You, Lord help me, restore me to Your purpose, lead me to Your everlasting.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Blessed Assurance, Jesus is Mine
28th July 2006,
5.14pm, Friday. Thank God for Fri...it's gonna be weekends, great! Yeap, today is Friday, and Fri is a CG day. So which CG am I gonna be visiting today? I'll join Jars of Clay (my little brother's CG). Mum not at home, she's on her way driving to Bro's place for dinner. I won't join them- will be going back home eat Maggie Mee :P Then go Pr. Mei's hse for CG.
This week has been a good week. My heart rested well, doing ACTs every night before sleep helps me in the Words. Learning to pray for others and the needs, looking beyond my own needs. Visited Ps Prem yesterday, he wasn't well, diagnosed with AML and looks pretty depressed. I truly understand how it feels. It's never easy going through such trials, pain and suffering. But all intended for some reason. Yes, all things work for good for those who love God, all things. That should be the assurance we have. To persevere on the life on earth, thru' persecution, suffering and pains- knowing that as we trust and hold on the faith, God will bring us higher. Sometimes we just wonder why bad people always escape, good people always suffer. The rich get richer, the poor poorer. It's heart wretching isn't it? Yet, the assurance of God is there, He is Sovereign, He is in control, He has made all things beautiful in His time. Press on the race, knowing that the prize is heavenward in Christ.
5.14pm, Friday. Thank God for Fri...it's gonna be weekends, great! Yeap, today is Friday, and Fri is a CG day. So which CG am I gonna be visiting today? I'll join Jars of Clay (my little brother's CG). Mum not at home, she's on her way driving to Bro's place for dinner. I won't join them- will be going back home eat Maggie Mee :P Then go Pr. Mei's hse for CG.
This week has been a good week. My heart rested well, doing ACTs every night before sleep helps me in the Words. Learning to pray for others and the needs, looking beyond my own needs. Visited Ps Prem yesterday, he wasn't well, diagnosed with AML and looks pretty depressed. I truly understand how it feels. It's never easy going through such trials, pain and suffering. But all intended for some reason. Yes, all things work for good for those who love God, all things. That should be the assurance we have. To persevere on the life on earth, thru' persecution, suffering and pains- knowing that as we trust and hold on the faith, God will bring us higher. Sometimes we just wonder why bad people always escape, good people always suffer. The rich get richer, the poor poorer. It's heart wretching isn't it? Yet, the assurance of God is there, He is Sovereign, He is in control, He has made all things beautiful in His time. Press on the race, knowing that the prize is heavenward in Christ.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Life Application Bible, NKJV
25th July 2006,
Yeap..that's right, I finally bought the Study Bible, cool! Hmm..I have 2 bibles both given by Celina, and now finally got my own. Will need to make the fullest use of it. I've wanted to start afresh, in Bible reading- back up with the Sword, the WOG to able to grow strong, to be a better person. ACTS is very much powerful tools, ..indeed Ps. Sam has put a lot effort in this, preparing the material, very practical approach.
Today supposed to be audit by the Ministry of Health, but they postponed the visit to tomorrow. I did not do much, probably coz I didn't feel the pinch, quite experience from the previous accreditation. Work has been quite routine, normal- nothing much challenging. For some it's a good thing, not so much of stress, have some life. For me, it's okie, but without putting more efford to keep me occupied, I'll end up complacent and lazy...I hope not. Yes, am waiting for new system e-THIS, new coding, new structure. Confirmed to implement by 31th Auguest. Can't wait for it. My CDR Unit, hopefully by end of the year able to set it up properly. Delegation so far so good. Staff response well, not sure about Magdalene..hope she can cope without Charmine. I have 2 students with me now, 1 Pharmacy Student, a guy another Medical student. I thank God for this 2 students, very hardworking- didn't count much, do whtever seniors asked to do. Hope the attachment in GMC will provide good experience and additional practical knowledge for their future use.
Well, Tuesday- nothing much, going back have lunch, then spend time with mum, doing reading and rest. Not much of activities with church friends, only weekends. Cell Group...still not sure, thinking of joining back Desa-U...Benji has take up the CGL role, wanting to support, yet feel inadequate, as if has been long far off, not sure what to contribute. Still wandering, prayerfully when the right time comes, I'll get back on-track. Praise God!
Yeap..that's right, I finally bought the Study Bible, cool! Hmm..I have 2 bibles both given by Celina, and now finally got my own. Will need to make the fullest use of it. I've wanted to start afresh, in Bible reading- back up with the Sword, the WOG to able to grow strong, to be a better person. ACTS is very much powerful tools, ..indeed Ps. Sam has put a lot effort in this, preparing the material, very practical approach.
Today supposed to be audit by the Ministry of Health, but they postponed the visit to tomorrow. I did not do much, probably coz I didn't feel the pinch, quite experience from the previous accreditation. Work has been quite routine, normal- nothing much challenging. For some it's a good thing, not so much of stress, have some life. For me, it's okie, but without putting more efford to keep me occupied, I'll end up complacent and lazy...I hope not. Yes, am waiting for new system e-THIS, new coding, new structure. Confirmed to implement by 31th Auguest. Can't wait for it. My CDR Unit, hopefully by end of the year able to set it up properly. Delegation so far so good. Staff response well, not sure about Magdalene..hope she can cope without Charmine. I have 2 students with me now, 1 Pharmacy Student, a guy another Medical student. I thank God for this 2 students, very hardworking- didn't count much, do whtever seniors asked to do. Hope the attachment in GMC will provide good experience and additional practical knowledge for their future use.
Well, Tuesday- nothing much, going back have lunch, then spend time with mum, doing reading and rest. Not much of activities with church friends, only weekends. Cell Group...still not sure, thinking of joining back Desa-U...Benji has take up the CGL role, wanting to support, yet feel inadequate, as if has been long far off, not sure what to contribute. Still wandering, prayerfully when the right time comes, I'll get back on-track. Praise God!
Monday, July 10, 2006
Sing a new song to the Lord
10th July 2006,
6.00pm Monday evening. Write my blog before going off to Flame. Later the Desa-U rian will meet up- gonna hv dinner wth Matt before he go off to China. Wah, he's a blessed man- God has really blessed him with wonderful opportunity for climb coaprate ladder.
I reached Pg Airport 7pm, Benji and Jason came to pick me up then we join the rest for dinner. Really tired, but Kl trip was a fruitful one, I learned a lot, and am blessed by the fellowship with ex-SAHC, Lisa and Kawai. Manage to watch a bit from Fire conference CD- on Paul Baloche teaching one session on the heart of worship. I'm amazed on the way he sing to the Lord, yes- sing to the Lord from the heart. To know the scripture, and take out the Scripture and sing, just sing out. Sing praises to Him, worship from the heart. Worship in Spirit and truth....I'm blessed and challenged. Ps. Joseph shared on book of Joshua, how he conquer the land of Ai, and what can we learn from tht. We never can run ahead of God, but to wait for the opportunity, and He will provide the blessings- Blessings from obedient. Settled the sins, deal with the sins before victory come. Holding on and living on the Word of God.
Wake up late today-8.30am, rain so heavily, continuously. I jammed for almost an hour, the cars doesn't seem to move at all, trying to use other route (Jelutong) but end up the same. Finally manage to get to hospital by 10am, wow, that is late. I had lunch with Mr Koh, Japansese food- he treat. He's rather quiet man, and I'm also quiet person, we do talk on some personal things- eg. what we do during weekends, how is the church doing- reaching to Vietnamese, etc. Overall alright. I'm still not comfortable with people th higher authority, yes- respect and also need to treat the person as human...learning. My boss is good boss- never ever pressuring me. Thank God for him. Yup, going off. The guys must be waiting- hopefully not jam. Till then! Bye
6.00pm Monday evening. Write my blog before going off to Flame. Later the Desa-U rian will meet up- gonna hv dinner wth Matt before he go off to China. Wah, he's a blessed man- God has really blessed him with wonderful opportunity for climb coaprate ladder.
I reached Pg Airport 7pm, Benji and Jason came to pick me up then we join the rest for dinner. Really tired, but Kl trip was a fruitful one, I learned a lot, and am blessed by the fellowship with ex-SAHC, Lisa and Kawai. Manage to watch a bit from Fire conference CD- on Paul Baloche teaching one session on the heart of worship. I'm amazed on the way he sing to the Lord, yes- sing to the Lord from the heart. To know the scripture, and take out the Scripture and sing, just sing out. Sing praises to Him, worship from the heart. Worship in Spirit and truth....I'm blessed and challenged. Ps. Joseph shared on book of Joshua, how he conquer the land of Ai, and what can we learn from tht. We never can run ahead of God, but to wait for the opportunity, and He will provide the blessings- Blessings from obedient. Settled the sins, deal with the sins before victory come. Holding on and living on the Word of God.
Wake up late today-8.30am, rain so heavily, continuously. I jammed for almost an hour, the cars doesn't seem to move at all, trying to use other route (Jelutong) but end up the same. Finally manage to get to hospital by 10am, wow, that is late. I had lunch with Mr Koh, Japansese food- he treat. He's rather quiet man, and I'm also quiet person, we do talk on some personal things- eg. what we do during weekends, how is the church doing- reaching to Vietnamese, etc. Overall alright. I'm still not comfortable with people th higher authority, yes- respect and also need to treat the person as human...learning. My boss is good boss- never ever pressuring me. Thank God for him. Yup, going off. The guys must be waiting- hopefully not jam. Till then! Bye
Sunday, July 09, 2006
About to end...good trip!
9th July 2006,
12.10am Sunday morning. Lisa just went back. Lisa is a lady I meet when I visit Kawai's CG. Surprisingly it's not the 1st time that I meet her. I think I've attended her church_Grace Assembly couple years back when I visit Kenneth and Sarah. It's a small world- she know Li Gean and Viveene from FGC, my hometown church. Today conference was really taxing. I missed the 1st plenary in the morning because I overslept. Pretty tired. After the conference, take few minutes nap- then meet up with Lisa and eat at Mc-D. It's always nice to have gathering with Christian. She shared a lot to me, about what she learned during the Elijah Home, about Fathely love. The message quite similar to what Ps. Sam preached during Father's Day. I'm blessed to be reminded of the message again. Indeed good time. Each time before she leave she will pray with me. I'm amazed to see such caring and passionate lady, that desire to love God and make Him to be known.
Yeah, tomorrow is Sunday. Will miss church in Penang. Will not able to attend "Too close Too soon" seminar..wow, can escape from tht, good. Have been attending quite a number of the Singles talk, should be enough I guess. Yeah, will be visiting Lighthouse Fellowship tomorrow- hope I can wake up early tomorrow and get a right train to Taman Bahagia. This time don't want to take cab- previous experience has not been a pleasant one. Yeah, got to sleep- tomorrow church, got to be prepared for powerful message by Ps. Joseph, alright, bye Legend Hotel Room#1710, computer :P Nite!
12.10am Sunday morning. Lisa just went back. Lisa is a lady I meet when I visit Kawai's CG. Surprisingly it's not the 1st time that I meet her. I think I've attended her church_Grace Assembly couple years back when I visit Kenneth and Sarah. It's a small world- she know Li Gean and Viveene from FGC, my hometown church. Today conference was really taxing. I missed the 1st plenary in the morning because I overslept. Pretty tired. After the conference, take few minutes nap- then meet up with Lisa and eat at Mc-D. It's always nice to have gathering with Christian. She shared a lot to me, about what she learned during the Elijah Home, about Fathely love. The message quite similar to what Ps. Sam preached during Father's Day. I'm blessed to be reminded of the message again. Indeed good time. Each time before she leave she will pray with me. I'm amazed to see such caring and passionate lady, that desire to love God and make Him to be known.
Yeah, tomorrow is Sunday. Will miss church in Penang. Will not able to attend "Too close Too soon" seminar..wow, can escape from tht, good. Have been attending quite a number of the Singles talk, should be enough I guess. Yeah, will be visiting Lighthouse Fellowship tomorrow- hope I can wake up early tomorrow and get a right train to Taman Bahagia. This time don't want to take cab- previous experience has not been a pleasant one. Yeah, got to sleep- tomorrow church, got to be prepared for powerful message by Ps. Joseph, alright, bye Legend Hotel Room#1710, computer :P Nite!
Saturday, July 08, 2006
3rd PENSMA Biennial Congress: Nutritional Support, Legend Hotel, Kuala Lumpur
7th July 2006,
12.08am Saturday morning. I just got back from gathering with old classmates: Kok Keong, Andrew, Jenny and Sim Wooi. It was a great gathering, after so long didn't meet. I enjoy the time chatting and as usual the jokes. Yeah, today is 1st Day of the conference. So far so good, I learn quite some bit about TPN (Total Parenteral Nutrition) even though we're not into such service in GMC.
I was pretty tired. Yesterday (Thurs) flight supposed to be 7.25pm but delayed to 10.00pm. By the time we reach Legend Hotel, it's already past midnite: 12.45pm. Then another bad experience. The hotel gave me wrong room. My ascess card could not open the door because there was someone inside. I can hear the snoring. Called up the Hotel staff twice before they finally arrange another room for me. By the time all settled it was real late: 1.30am. Anyway, cool! I have a free internet ascess here. Even though the computer is not Window based, but I can still surf and ascess to mailbox. That is why I'm here, middle of the nite blogging all the way through.
Today seminar pretty okie, few of the session I almost doze off, but with coffee manage to keep my eyes open. Fresenius Kabi sponsored quite a number of people from Penang. Most of the people were from Government side- Dr. Luah, and co. only 2 of us from private: Ms. Chen (Adventist Hospital Head of Pharmacy) and myself. Ganesh was sponsored by Braun. We had same flight, and it's good time for bonding and sharing of experience. Ms Chen always my role model in private healthcare. A lot people afraid of her, yet there's still respect in terms of her way of handling work- very discipline and no no to play a fool with.
After the seminar, I went to gym, had a quick workout and then come back freshen up to join the gathering. I was very encouraged to hear Andrew joinign fulltime ministry. He's now a Children Pastor in SIB church in KL, near Eastin Hotel. Only a few people that I'm close with during Form 6 time: Jenny, Keong and Andrew. We chatted in Kopitiam Restaurant, Sri Hartammas- and we just saying that time was so fast that we're now so old. Can't believe we're reaching 30's soon, and some already in their 30's. Oh No! I can't imagine myself in 30's, another more year I'll be nenek.....Oh No!
I was really tired. Just now sis called- she shared with me on the possiblity of breaking up with her bf. Again??!! I was pretty unhappy with the decision, as if she has been going around many relationship and none has been successful. Most of the time she is the one rejecting the relationship, probably have not found a "right" person, or is it something to do with expectation. Hmmm...I wonder my case, I've not been in any relationship before- can't believe it yeah? That's right, never into any relationship. Most of the time I was the one that clapping one hand, a few times- sensing someone that attract to me, but know not suitable- keeping a distance. I wonder how will my relationship be? Well, as for me, of such time, relationship will lead to marriage, or else better to stay single.
12.30am, am tired, gonna logoff. Thank you Lord for the day.
12.08am Saturday morning. I just got back from gathering with old classmates: Kok Keong, Andrew, Jenny and Sim Wooi. It was a great gathering, after so long didn't meet. I enjoy the time chatting and as usual the jokes. Yeah, today is 1st Day of the conference. So far so good, I learn quite some bit about TPN (Total Parenteral Nutrition) even though we're not into such service in GMC.
I was pretty tired. Yesterday (Thurs) flight supposed to be 7.25pm but delayed to 10.00pm. By the time we reach Legend Hotel, it's already past midnite: 12.45pm. Then another bad experience. The hotel gave me wrong room. My ascess card could not open the door because there was someone inside. I can hear the snoring. Called up the Hotel staff twice before they finally arrange another room for me. By the time all settled it was real late: 1.30am. Anyway, cool! I have a free internet ascess here. Even though the computer is not Window based, but I can still surf and ascess to mailbox. That is why I'm here, middle of the nite blogging all the way through.
Today seminar pretty okie, few of the session I almost doze off, but with coffee manage to keep my eyes open. Fresenius Kabi sponsored quite a number of people from Penang. Most of the people were from Government side- Dr. Luah, and co. only 2 of us from private: Ms. Chen (Adventist Hospital Head of Pharmacy) and myself. Ganesh was sponsored by Braun. We had same flight, and it's good time for bonding and sharing of experience. Ms Chen always my role model in private healthcare. A lot people afraid of her, yet there's still respect in terms of her way of handling work- very discipline and no no to play a fool with.
After the seminar, I went to gym, had a quick workout and then come back freshen up to join the gathering. I was very encouraged to hear Andrew joinign fulltime ministry. He's now a Children Pastor in SIB church in KL, near Eastin Hotel. Only a few people that I'm close with during Form 6 time: Jenny, Keong and Andrew. We chatted in Kopitiam Restaurant, Sri Hartammas- and we just saying that time was so fast that we're now so old. Can't believe we're reaching 30's soon, and some already in their 30's. Oh No! I can't imagine myself in 30's, another more year I'll be nenek.....Oh No!
I was really tired. Just now sis called- she shared with me on the possiblity of breaking up with her bf. Again??!! I was pretty unhappy with the decision, as if she has been going around many relationship and none has been successful. Most of the time she is the one rejecting the relationship, probably have not found a "right" person, or is it something to do with expectation. Hmmm...I wonder my case, I've not been in any relationship before- can't believe it yeah? That's right, never into any relationship. Most of the time I was the one that clapping one hand, a few times- sensing someone that attract to me, but know not suitable- keeping a distance. I wonder how will my relationship be? Well, as for me, of such time, relationship will lead to marriage, or else better to stay single.
12.30am, am tired, gonna logoff. Thank you Lord for the day.
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